Scarleteen

If he seemed fine externally that's all you have to go off. If he was consenting along the way and going along with it, even if there's a possibility he just didn't understand, you were both kids who were just exploring and barely understood these concepts. That doesn't make you unworthy of help or support, especially since you had no malicious intentions. Can you tell me more about why you feel a resistance to reach out for mental health support? We are asking you to please reach out and have given you the resources, I hope you can see we are trying to help you and want what's best for you.