Scarleteen

i can’t really do anything but thug it out
i feel less motivated to do schoolwork all of the sudden. this is probably the start of something bad. i don’t want to live in this hol e again.

all i do is scroll on my phone to pacify myself and forget what i will inevitably have to do and how i have ruined my future by continuing this cycle.

Hi aliengirl. I'm so sorry you're having a rough time

Is there anything we can do to help you?

I should stop staying up so late. It is not good for me. It makes me think negative stuff. I am sorry.

You know, it is very hard to be living in the world right now, envisioning our futures, and very easy to have trouble sleeping and disconnecting from anywhere we get information. In the event you are someone hypervigilant, it's all the more challenging. Either way, you don't need to be sorry for having a hard time or expressing that you're having a hard time here.

Would you like some help or support with things like getting to bed on time and limiting your scrolling?

I have this app that blocks all of the distractions. I’m going to turn the block feature on at 10PM to 4AM. I think that’ll help because really the only thing that keeps me up is my phone.

And I should probably put my phone away at least 60 minutes before bed. I feel like I have the systems in place, I just need to get the gears turning. It takes me about 30 minutes to get ready for bed so I could start that at 9PM and then read my book from 9:30 to 10ish.

I really struggle with consistency. I have no one to hold me accountable unfortunately.

I understand that completely. You're always welcome to use the boards for that, if that helps, maybe checking in here before you log off? Or asking a fried to be an accountability buddy?

I think using the boards would be a good idea. Thank you

You're welcome!

hi aliengirl. reading this and just wondering, how it's going? i know i similarly struggle with "i have the systems, i just need to get the gears turning," so i wanted to check in!!! you mentioned screentime, i also feel like it's hard to get off my phone at night. how is that going and how are you feeling?

it’s going not good

but i will inevitably have to do stuff

so i just do it

i get off my phone when i feel sleepy

i don’t know

i’ll wake up tomorrow and feel horrible

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sorry if this seems hostile

It doesn't seem hostile, it seems like you're having a hard time feeling hopeful. Can we help support you in any way?

it's all good, hope is hard. like Heather asked, would it help to talk about anything?
hang in there friend <3

how do you help more?

i do not know, i do not have a desire for help in any way that i know of

it is nice to be heard though

Hey aliengirl,

We are here to listen if you need us <3

Have you also thought about seeking some help from other professionals like a therapist? We can absolutely be here to listen, but the scope of our services doesn't go too far outside the realm of sexual health education unfortunately, so for more specialized listening and support we would suggest looking to someone like a school counselor or therapist if that's something you have access to?

Therapy and counseling can be so so helpful even in just having the space, like this, to express what you've been feeling. Which you can still of course do here, but I do want to make sure you have also thought about options that may be better suited to support you long-term. How does that feel to you?