everything is so messed up

[random-rat]

Im realizing how screwed up the world is. I've read the Epstein files, and the thing all those men have done are disgusting and make me, a person who hates nobody because im too epathetic, feel hateful feelings so strong I can't explain. its so fucked up how trump was even mentioned in them once, not to mention the amount of times he was. this man represents the country I live in and I hate having to be associated with someone so disgusting. what's even worse is the fact that my family voted for him, they asked for this. and when I've told them about this crap they say things like "trump would never people are lying" WHAT THE HELL. WHO LIES ABOUT THAT. and with all the things going on in the middle east I feel even worse because my cousin is in the army and is currently there and he says a bunch of kids are starving and don't even have families anymore. so now I feel guilty about complaining and being a spoiled American and saying I hate my country that I'm safe in (altho I feel constant fear). I wanna fight for everyone facing struggles and injustice, all genders, all colors, all ages, all sexualities, everyone. I've realized that there will never be fairness because there will always be people who only care about themselves and allow others to suffer or hate other for things that make no difference because they genuinely are insensitive or have been brainwashed by insensitive people. I hate the way society works, I hate this. all people have things they wanna fight for that they believe in, and there's factors like emotions and experiences that influnce that and there's nothing that can be done about it. basically I can't do anything to help those struggling like me because they'll never truly be treated fairly by society, its so messed up and I just needed to vent because I hate that I cant do anything about it.

[char]

Hi random-rat. I'm not American--as you can see in my location--but I can definitely relate to this. You are not alone.

Without getting into too much detail, a highly problematic figure also won our presidential election a few years ago, gaining the majority vote. I was able to vote as someone of age--and I didn't vote for him--but my parents did, and it upsets me that they voted for him. I couldn't discuss sociopolitical issues with them either, because they're the kind of self-centric middle-aged folks who thinks they're above anyone younger than them. Not to mention our opposing political views made it even harder to be honest and civil with them. Since then, things have gotten worse in many ways, and it's clearly been hard for a lot of my friends--especially those who are marginalized (religious minority, queer, disabled, poor, etc.).

I find sharing my thoughts like this helpful to let go of my anxieties/stress--I'm glad that you trust us with your vent. There may not be much we can do to stop those in charge from destroying humanity, but we can definitely support each other through kind words in spaces like this.