Scarleteen

trans girl here. been trans since 13 now 14 almost 15 and feeling so confused. dont feel dysphoria nor euphoria. just . nothing. im laughing at myself because this is so cringe but also really how i do feel. what if i do wanna be a man. idk.

sorry, that was very vague. just wondering if i dont know what if i only transitioned because i am more ''conventionally attractive'' as a girl. i dont know. i just wanna be a girl and happy but it feels as if im in denial the same way as a formerly cis girl could be in denial about being a boy. but am i . i dont know

Hi there, welcome to the boards!

It’s not cringe! How you’re feeling is valid and makes sense. It sounds like you are happiest as a girl, but perhaps not fully comfortable with it yet. That’s normal, and not all trans people have gender euphoria or dysphoria. In a way, having neither and just feeling neutral about it is a sign that it feels somewhat natural for you to exist as a girl, which is great. I don’t think it has to have a deeper meaning than that unless you truly think it does, you know?

Do you have people in your life to talk to about this? Either a mental health professional or a trusted friend or family member? It’s very helpful to have someone to process these thoughts and feelings with <3