Scarleteen

So im trying to manage my sexuality. I am sexually attracted to boys and while i am bisexual, i am not as physically attracted to women as i am boys. I know what its like to be a woman, having boobs and period is so annoying to me, i dont wish to sexualise them. I think i sexualise men in my head and refuse to sexualise women which makes me unsure if i feel sexually attracted to women a lot of the time (i am but i am very aware of not sexualising them.) i am so sick of myself (as a woman) being sexualised and in the media women are just constantly sexualised. I really do not want to feed into that. Anyone relate?