I get super guilty after pleasuring to someone I look up to

[Alyxx <3]

I get super guilty after pleasuring myself to someone I idolise a lot and I don’t know what to doooooo.

I’m ace- pansexual and I don’t really watch porn or anything that sexual. I usually masturbate to people I find really pretty and cute. I don’t even fantasise about anything when I do. I just find looking at pictures of them fun whenever I’m masturbating.

But there’s a celebrity that I idolise and love so so much. Their music is such a big part of my life and they’ve helped me through so much.

But they’re also the person I usually pleasure too, and I mostly always feel super guilty after I do.

I’ve been dealing with this for awhile and it’s really gotten to me on so many occasions. I have tried to stop pleasuring to them, but they’re the only person I ever feel like pleasuring too.

I’m so sorry if I worded this really badly. This is the first time I’ve ever talked about this to someone and I wasn’t to sure on how to say everythinggg <33

[Sofi]

Hi there, welcome to the boards! You worded it just fine, and I want to assure you there's nothing wrong with what you're doing. When we fantasize about someone like a celebrity, we're not really harming them or anyone. There's nothing really unethical about having those thoughts and masturbating to their photos because we're not directly harming or dehumanizing them as a person. Does this help ease your concerns?