I am fairly new to navigating through my relationship and sex. There are times when I'm genuinely confused with what I feel and I could use some clarity about what's going on and how I can overcome it.
My girlfriend and I have been sexually active for less than 2 months. I feel comfortable for most part of it but I feel like I have an unhealthy mindset towards certain aspects of sex especially when we explore new things. It ends up with me feeling ashamed and guilty for wanting and trying out my sexual fantasies(which seem to be "vanilla" when I look it up online)
We are good at communicating and establishing our boundaries and we're always on the same page. So i know she's comfortable and likes some of the things I like. Despite this, I start to feel guilty because I associate several aspects of sex as being demeaning towards her and it feels like an internal conflict for me.
Even something as simple as trying out a particular position makes me feel like I'm "using her". I feel like my urges seem animalistic and wrong. So I get overwhelmed and freeze often.
I would really appreciate it if you could shed some light on this! Im happy to respond to any relevant questions you might have.
Thank you (:
PS: since I'm new here, i wasn't sure if mentioning what we tried would be tmi, so i skipped it!