Girl thinks she's pregnant, what am I supposed to do?

[Heather]

Well, a person can always say to someone diagnosing them that they question the diagnosis or even dispute it, whether that's about mental health or any other area of health. I can imagine someone doing that because it's something I know people do, but also because I have had a long life with a lot of life and work experience in these areas.

All the same, however he got here, I'm really glad your Dad is feelign more inclined to give himself and his mental health some extra care.

Right now, it's hard for me to see how you would manage dating. You have been very stressed out and depressed, and you are dealign with something massive and pretty potentially life-changing. You have a lot to prepare yourself for. To be in an intimate relationship with someone that's going to be good for both people, especially to start something new, everyone needs to be in a mentally healthy space where they also have the actual room in their heads, hearts and lives for that new relationship. It's hard for me to see you having any of that right now or any time soon. You've been talking a lot since you came here about -- understandably! -- feeling very lost and overwhelmed. That's just not the kind of headspace for someone ready for a new intimate relationship.

But I don't believe that that will be the case for you forever, or maybe even for all that long, and I certainly don't believe that telling someone you are expecting an ex to have a baby, or even that you are expecting to be or are a parent, means you never get to date again. Instead, it will mean that your dating pool will be made up of people with the emotional maturity to handle that and who feel like they're okay dating someone who is a young parent. That won't be everyone, of course, but no one's dating pool is ever made of everyone, and sometimes something like this can even be a good thing in that it might help you weed out people who lack emotional maturity and other excellent qualities.

Since it seems likely that you are going to be someone with an ex with a baby on the way, and may be someone who is some form of teen parent, the only people who are likely to be good for you to date are going to be the people with the maturity to handle it and who are open to the realities of your life. That's a smaller pool, for sure, but it's also probably a good one, made primarily of thoughtful, sensitive and forward-thinking people.

[rodi]

At my school? The places i'm around? Sounds unlikely

[Heather]

Honestly, since you have a lot more on your plate now and coming up than dating to manage, and because I still think you're in pretty deep mentally with the stress of all this -- and so are coming to pretty much everything with a ton of negativity and dread -- I'd suggest we table this conversation for the time being.

It just doesn't seem relevant to your life right now nor does a conversation between us about it seem at all likely to be productive, especially given the way you're responding to me when I am taking time to talk with you about it with care and depth.

[rodi]

Sorry, changing the subject. What if the test is negative, i doubt everything will go back to normal even though it wouldn'tb e my fault.

[Heather]

I also don't think it makes sense to talk about that hypothetical, for a couple reasons:
1) First and foremost, because it seems incredibly unlikely, and because I don't think it's been healthy for you to keep holding on to that thread.
2) Because if that were the case, then there really wouldn't be much to talk about with you, because then this would not be happening, and what does change after that that's still to be resolved isn't something I feel like we can predict. We'd have to see what happened and then take it from there.

I think our best focus with you here is on what is going on in the here and now, what is real or most likely to be real, and how we and others can best help you with those things.

[rodi]

Test said the chance of me being the father is over 99.9%. Dad spent the day talking to me yesterday, I tried everything to make so that another test is done because I thought it was 1 in 1000 to be wrong, but he said test is as precise as any could be. It was tested for other stuff too, it says there's low risk for a bunch of genetic stuff, I guess that's less bad and also it's a male fetus.

Spending the holiday in my room cause I'm fucked.

[Heather]

rodi,

I'm so sorry. I know this isn't the result that you wanted. I agree with your father, there's no point in repeating the test. As you know, I didn't think it was needed in the first place, because I didn't see any reason Marcela would be dishonest about this.

I think that if you need time to grieve, it makes sense to give that to yourself. You are allowed to have all the feelings you have about this as the reality sinks in and you come to terms with it. I'd just also encourage you to keep talking to people in your support net, including us here and your therapist. You might also want to think about a friend or two that you trust and can tell about this so they can help be good friends to you and give you some extra support. <3

[rodi]

What now? Dad says this and that, people keep talking as if at some point a switch will flip and i'll be a father with dad mode, marcela included, but what if i never do, it feels like this fetus is trying to steal my life from me.

[Heather]

Again, a fetus isn't doing anything to you. After all, it didn't decide to exist, it's something that was a result of choices you and Marcela made. It also doesn't have any power or agency right now to do anything.

I disagree that there is a switch that just flips, without you doing anything to change your mindset, even though many parents do experience a pretty big surge of feelings after a child is born, as well as a feeling of responsibility.

To me, the what now for you in this moment is you doing work to accept that this is happening, and then starting to decide how you do or don't want to be involved from here on out (though only so far in the future, since feelings and circumstances change).

We could start to talk that through together if you like? If you would, I'd say that that involves deciding things like:
• Do you want to be involved with pre-natal care, like ultrasounds and childbirth classes?
• Do you want to be involved with the birth, or to meet your child after?
• What kind of involvement do you think you might want after the birth? Would you like to share custody in some way, or are you more envisioning that Marcela has sole custody? Would you like the infant to live with you sometimes or no? Do you want your family involved? What kind of involvement have they said they might want, and how might they be willing to help you, Marcela, or both?
• What's important for you to keep doing or to do regardless of being a parent? I'm talking about things like finishing school, about daily activities like working out that are important to you, other relationships, etc?
• What kind of education/information do you need about parenting or your rights as a parent to go along with what you do or don't want around this?