Family issues

[Shreklover]

My mom is abusing me she has physically and emotionally and verbally abuse maybe sexually. I need desprate help as she is transphobic and threantening to hosptialize me over a threat i made to her im unwell and cps refuses to do anything im tired of nit being accepted im tired of the 8 mental disorders she has given me i want to go somewhere where i am loved i want my real parents im currently collecting money to transition and survive on my own once i reach 18 it is impossible for me to get a job until next year when i am 18 i have apllied to over 50 places with no luck. Pray that i don't die without freedom. I am currently sitting in my aunties house trying to figure out what to do

[Shreklover]

Im gonna post this somewhere else

[Shreklover]

Im reposting this to get a quicker answer.
My mom is abusing me she has physically and emotionally and verbally abuse maybe sexually. I need desprate help as she is transphobic and threantening to hosptialize me over a threat i made to her im unwell and cps refuses to do anything im tired of nit being accepted im tired of the 8 mental disorders she has given me i want to go somewhere where i am loved i want my real parents im currently collecting money to transition and survive on my own once i reach 18 it is impossible for me to get a job until next year when i am 18 i have apllied to over 50 places with no luck. Pray that i don't die without freedom. I am currently sitting in my aunties house trying to figure out what to do

[Shreklover]

Is my post invisible this is terrible i dont want to live but im going too

[lilikoi]

Hi there Shreklover,

I am so sorry to hear that you are managing this! For starters, you do not need to put up with abuse from someone so there are ways out of your current situation. There is hope! Unfortunately, our team is fairly small and cannot respond to posts immediately. Given that (and our lack of mental health care training), we encourage users with urgent mental health needs to use a mental health specific resource for immediate support. Here are those numbers.

Suicide Prevention Hotline: 1-800-273-8255
Crisis Text Line: Text HOME to 741741
SAMHSA’s National Help Line: 1-800-662-4357

You deserve to feel safe and loved. In the coming days while you navigate your next steps, we can chat about the transition between 17 and 18 if that's helpful. Is your aunty someone you feel safe with? Are there other adults or friends in your life who make you feel safe?

Also, wanted to let you know that I merged the topics and kept them in the same forum so our team can follow the thread easily.