Can I be a boy and a girl? Can someone be transmasc and a girl?

[coffeebeans]

Idk if I sound ignorant. But like what if someone wanted to transition to be a boy but also sees themselves as a girl . What if I wanted to be fluid? Idk can you be both?

[amber]

Hi coffeebeans!

You don't sound ignorant and I can assure you people have felt similarly before.

I see you've chatted with us before about the desire to find labels that fit for you, so I don't think it's a surprise that what I will say first is that labels are meant to fit us, not us into labels. Fitting yourself into a box sounds like the exact opposite of what would be helpful for you at this time.

Instead, I think it could be helpful to breakdown what you mean by 'transition' or seeing yourself as a girl. What does this look like in your expression, the way you dress? How about how people refer to you?

Does that make sense?

[coffeebeans]

Idk I like being a girl but I won't mind if I was a boy . If I could change the way people see me I would be a boy. Or maybe look fluid. I do realize it's not good to put myself in a box. It's not nice yet it kinda frustrating that gender feels binary when it isn't. I which I could switch between bodies whenever I want. I also know I'm not going to be perceived well if I was a guy. I'm black if I was a muscular guy people wouldn't view me as soft at least I don't think so. Idk how to explain it I wish I had the words it's probably something I internalized. I don't know what it called but like it feels like people view masculinity on black people very different from someone with lighter skin or white. If I was like a dude that like to be feminine would I be seen as gay? Not that there's anything wrong with being gay I don't mind but I feel like it wouldn't be seen as cute . Idk what I'm saying but I guess I'll have to figure out what masculinity means to me.

But I would also like to be referred to as a girl. I guess I'm use to it . It feels nice but wrong to just be a girl . I wish I was fluid or both or neither at the same time. But I guess I have to just be okay with just being for now.